What Had Happened Was...

So this weekend was spent at home doing absolutely nothing. Meems wasn't feeling very well so we stayed indoors. And for some reason my voice went on Friday so I sounded like a raspy smoker.

Sunday was Mother's Day here in the UK. Didn't do anything special for it. Since Meems wasn't well I didn't go to see my mum. She made a big song and dance about it. But she could have come and seen me, but she didn't.

Work has been picking up lately. I guess that's a good thing. Keeps me busy. My boss's wife has been doing better. She doesn't panic as much now. She can hold her own. But she shares way too much info with me. Anything that's wrong with her she feels the need to share. Then she asks some dumb questions sometimes. I don't know everything, if you want to find something out look it up.

Meems has started to notice that people come in different colours. Before she may see someone on the train and would ask me "Momma, what's the man doing?" Now it's "Momma, what's the white man doing?" So I asked her what colour is mommy? She said brown. Okay so I asked her what colour is she? She said white. Yeah WHITE. Now she's only two and she is of "high yella" complexion so I guess to her she looks white. But when I told her she was brown, she flipped. She started yelling, "NO!! I'm white." Seeing as she's two I won't push it too much, I'll just keep gently reminding her that she's "brown". I must check with nursery to see if they've been teaching them about different races, because I've never addressed that with her.

Speaking of Meems, her dad is starting to irritate me. He always seems to have some excuse when it comes to seeing her. He's either too busy working on his house, or too tired from work. He had to bring me some money on Sunday, and he asked me to come outside. I figured maybe he was on his way somewhere and couldn't stop long. But he had me outside talking for ages. I asked him if he wanted to come inside and see Meems. He told me that he doesn't feel comfortable in the house and that's why he hasn't come back to see her in three weeks. WTF? So I asked what the problem was. Apparently I put off bad vibes or something. Now I'm not rude to this man. I have never once told him that he couldn't come see his child. When he comes over I'm polite, I make small talk. But I guess I'm not nice enough to him. So I said, if that was the case, you could have come to me and said something sooner. Or you could pick her up and take her to your house. He had no response for that. The thing that kills me is he always has an excuse. He'll say he's coming on Saturday and not show up. He doesn't call to say he can't make it. And when I try to call him, he doesn't answer the phone. Now I can be ignorant at times but I hold it back when dealing with him because he's not gonna use me as an excuse. He can't say that I'm stopping him from seeing his daughter. So instead of blowing up at him like I wanted to do, I apologised and said that I'll try harder. If he made more of an effort then maybe things would be different but he doesn't so they aren't.