Change

I have decided to make a change in my life. I want to change careers. I am now looking into the possibility of becoming a midwife. i like the job I have now but it doesn't motivate me. I need something to challenge me and excite me. i think being a midwife will do that. Some people may ask why a midwife. I guess because i remember the midwife I had when I gave birth. She was so nice. she didn't rush me, she explained everything as we went along. She wiped my ass(sorry TMI) during labour. I liked her alot. i want to be that type of midwife, where I can help someone through such an ordeal. I want to help bring a new life into this world. I think I have the dedication to this job. I need a stable career, something that will support me and my daughter. The job I have now is just that a job. It's not a career, there are no prospects for advancement. I guess i stayed here so long because i was comfortable. It was easy. But I don't want to take the easy way put anymore. I want to do something with my life, make my daughter proud of me. So I am looking into starting next year. That gives me enough time to settle into a new home, get my daughter settled into nursery and stuff. i am looking forward to it. i feel so much better now that I have a goal in life. Hopefully it all works out for the best.

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I went on a date

Yeah, it's not really BIG news, but hey this is my blog. I can't actually remember the last time I went out. I'm sure it was before I got pregnant. i usually just go to work and come home. So anyway, I met J 2 years ago. Yeah that long ago, and he just only called me recently ( something about losing his phone). It took forever for me to remember where i met him. So we went out to dinner last Friday. i can't remember when i had so much fun. it was cool. There weren't any awkward silences. We talked like we knew each other for years. it was cool. it was good to get out of the house for a few hours. Well that's all for now. Got work to do.

Summer Fashion

Well the sun has come out for a little while. If you live in England you know what our summers are like. It will be hot one week and cold and rainy the next. But this week is gonna be a warm one. So I am preparing myself for all the half nekkid people walking around. Men walking and driving with no shirts on. Women is booty shorts and short azz skirts. Hey I'm not hating on anybody, if you have the body to pull off the outfit then more power to you. But there are some people that need to know their limits. I'm not a skinny girl, but i know what i look good in and what i don't. But some people are walking around in denial. I went this hair show the other week. it was really good, got loads of freebies. Anyway, there was this woman, she looked to be somewhere in her early 50s. She had on this short dress like thing. I mean it was right under her butt. The top was sheer and she had a gold looking vest underneath. When we saw her we couldn't help but bust out laughing. Everyone was talking about her. And she must of heard us too because suddenly she started pulling the skirt down, but it wasn't going any lower. Now if you have to keep pulling the skirt down then you know its too short. It wasn't really about what she was wearing, it was how she looked in it. She wasn't exactly a slim woman. She didn't have nice legs and she just looked all wrong. And it was freezing cold outside and raining hell hard. Why didn't the people she was with tell her what she looked like. If that was me, i would want my friends to tell me if i look a hot mess. Instead of letting me go out in public like that. i know these people must have passed a mirror before they left their house. It's crazy.